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Tuesday, November 25th, 2003

Time:7:10 pm.
I made a new Livejournal name.

If you want to add me..straight.

'jesus_is_a_cunt'.

Hit it up.

Monday, November 24th, 2003

Time:5:04 am.
Mood: annoyed.
Well..I didnt get enough of the 'Why did you delete your journal' comments.

To be honest..
I'm pretty much tired of it, really.

I'm sick of my pointless entries, and getting lame fucking comments.



So for now on.
This journal,..is comment free.
And I'm gonna be talking about some serious shit that goes on through my head, Shit that I think about each day.


For one..
I'd like to say my name ..'xgunsandknivesx' is tacky, and I hate it. I wish I could just have a new name/start a new journal.

But oh well, fuck it.

For two..
I'd like to say, I'm not going to hide shit, it's only going to be truthful, and I really couldn't give a shit about who's feelings I hurt, or what I wasn't 'supposed' to say, or who's promise I broke.

Fuck it, life's to short for that shit.



For the most part of my life, I am not happy at all.
I'm trying to go through some things to help me change that.

I dont like where I live. I dont like the fact that I've been single since March,..and that I quite possibly have the biggest crush on a girl,.. who is just..way out of my league to begin with. I hate the fact that I'm not in college anymore.I hate the fact I owe soo much money to different bills. I hate the fact that I dont have a car. I hate the fact that I dont make as much money as a used to. I fucking hate the fact that I never have food to eat. And I hate the fact that there is always people around me that I care about..but I am just soo sick of being around them.

That shit fucking kills me.

There is way too much drama in my life, shit that should have been left behind in high school when we all graduated.


So for one..
I'm paying Danny the money I owe him at the end of this month, and I'm planning on moving back in with my parents. That way..I will have a car. I will be saving money. I will have food to eat. I wont be surrounded by all my friends constantly. I can support myself, and go back to school.

And, ..as for the girl... Well.. I'm making her a mixtape. Which is all I can really do.


Her 'The Greatest lovers were murders first.' mixtape consist of..
1.)Halloween sample (screams and such.)
2.)'Protect ya neck' - Wu-Tang Clan
3.)'Watch Me' - 7L & Esoteric
4.)'Feelin Ignorant' - Cannibal Ox & RJD2
5.)'Scream Phoenix' - Cannibal Ox
6.)'Flava for ya ear (Remix)' - The Bad Boy Family.
7.)'The Militia' - Gang Starr
8.)'Simon Says' - Pharaohe Monch
9.)'Cream' - Wu-Tang Clan
10.)'36 Chambers' - Wu-Tang Clan
11.)'Skills 101' - Reks, Esoteric, & J-Live
12.)'Blood runs cold Ft. Sean Price' - Jedi Mind Tricks
13.)'Killah bees' - Bobby Digital & Inspectah Deck (Wu-Tang Clan)
14.)'Gravel Pit' - Wu-Tang Clan
15.)'War Ensemble' - Army of the Pharoah
16.)'One blood under W' - Wu-Tang Clan
17.)'Labcabincalifornia' - Pharsyde
18.)Halloween Sample (Screaming)

Hopefully, she'll like it/me a whole lot.

Friday, November 21st, 2003

Time:4:31 pm.
Well..This is my last livejournal entry.
I'm sure you all dont care..but fuck yall.

Thursday, November 20th, 2003

Time:4:44 pm.
Mood: cranky.
NAME: Matthew Cody Goens.

AGE: 20.

L0CATi0N: Newport News, Va.

Z0DIAC SIGN: Capicorn.

SH0E SiZE: 9.

HEiGHT: 6'0".

EYE C0L0R: Green.

HAiR C0L0R: Brown.

CAR: Nissan Sentra.

H0BBIES: Band, 10 speeds, Skating, Writing Graff.

NICKNAMES: Pretty Matt, and now Mr. Ominous.

WHAT LANGUAGES D0 Y0U SPEAK: English.

WHAT SP0RTS D0 Y0U PLAY: I used to play Basketball in High School and College.

WHERE WERE Y0U B0RN: Newport News, Va.

ARE Y0U A NIGHT 0R M0RNING PERS0N: Night.

ARE Y0U TICKLISH: Yes. Who isn't?

D0 Y0U BELIEVE IN GOD: No.

GETTING PERSONAL

WHAT DO YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU GROW UP: Touring agent, Band tech.

WHAT IS Y0UR M0ST EMBARRASSING ST0RY: I threw up on a girl once.

WHAT HAS BEEN THE BEST DAY 0F Y0UR LIFE:

WHAT C0MES FIRST IN Y0UR LIFE: Myself.

D0 Y0U HAVE A GiRLFRiEND: No, I dont.

DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND: Haha. I wish I had a Rich one.

IF Y0U HAD AN EXTRA PAiR 0F EYES, WHERE W0ULD Y0U PUT THEM: On my hands, Because that would be freaky.

WHAT D0 Y0U USUALLY THiNK B0UT BEF0RE Y0U G0 T0 SLEEP AT NiGHT: Why cant I ever get past level 4 in Tertis on Gameboy.

IN THE PAST 24 H0URS HAVE Y0U...

HAD A SERi0US TALK: Last serious talk was in N.Y.C.

HUGGED S0ME0NE: No.

F0UGHT W/ A FRiEND: Yeah...I never know whats going on with the band..ever.

CRIED: No.

LAUGHED: Yeah, last night.

MADE S0ME0NE LAUGH: "Boom Boom Cha...State Champs I can Smell it." (some commerical..'Dont blink dont blink dont blink dont blink.' ...haha.

B0UGHT S0METHiNG: No.

HAD SEX: I wish.

TALKED T0 S0ME0NE Y0U L0VE: No.

MISSED S0ME0NE: Yeah.

HAVE Y0U EVER

HAD S0ME0NE BE UNFAITHFUL T0 Y0U: Yeah.

BEEN IN L0VE: I think so, Definitly.

SH0VED STUFF UNDER THE BED T0 MAKE Y0UR R00M L0OK CLEAN: Shit, There's shit down there right now.

BEEN IN A H0SPiTAL? God, yes.

DUMPED S0ME0NE & REGRETTED IT: Yeah.

WENT 0UT W/ M0RE THAN 0NE PERS0N AT A TIME: No, That's true pimp material.

EVER L0VED S0ME0NE S0 MUCH IT MADE Y0U CRY: Yes.

HATED Y0URSELF: Hell yeah.

BEEN BR0KENHEARTED: Yes.

BR0KEN S0ME0NES HEART: Yeah, sucked.

D0 Y0U LIKE T0 GIVE HUGS: Sometimes, hugs are just awesome.

LIKE T0 WALK IN THE RAIN: Depends what the situation is.

SLEEP W/ 0R W/0 CL0THES: Without.

SLEEP 0N Y0UR SIDE: most of the time, yeah.

WANT T0 GET MARRiED: Yes, Definitly..I'm looking forward to it.

IF S0, T0 WH0: I'm not sure, I thought I knoew but...yeah.

Time:1:22 am.
Wu-Tang Clan/Wu-Tang Clan Member's CD Christmas Wish List.
(This doesn't count the singles and imports.)

-[Wu-Tang Clan]
Enter the Wu-Tang (36 Chambers)
Wu-Tang Forever
Wu Tang Iron Flag
Wu-Chronicles
The W
The Swarm, Vol. 1
Reunited Remix
Reunion
Triumph
America
Can It Be All So Simple
C.R.E.A.M.

-[Rza]
RZA as Bobby Digital in Stereo
The RZA Hits
Digital Bullet
Birth of a Prince

-[Gza]
Liquid Swords
Beneath the Surface
Legend Of The Liquid Sword
Knock, Knock
Shadowboxin'
Cold World
I Gotcha' Back
Words From The Genius
Come Do Me

-[U-God]
Golden Arms Redemption
Bizarre

-[Masta Killa]
(None)

-[Method Man]
Tical 0: The Prequel
Tical
Blackout!
Tical 2000 : Judgement Day
Bring The Pain
The Riddler

-[Raekwon]
Only Built 4 Cuban Linx
Immobilarity
Lex Diamond Story
The Hood
Criminology
Ice Cream/Incarcerated Scarfaces
Heaven & Hell

-[Inspectah Deck]
Movement
Uncontrolled Substance

-[Ghostface Killah]
Ironman
Supreme Clientele
Bulletproof Wallets
Shaolin's Finest
Cherchez Laghost

-[Cappadonna]
The Pillage
The Struggle
Cappadonna's Iron Fist Pillage
Cappadonna Hits
The Yin and the Yang

-[Ol' Dirty Bastard]
Return to the 36 Chambers
Nigga Please
The Dirty Story: The Best of ODB
Trials & Tribulations of Russell Jones
Welcome Home
Revolution: The Black Man Is God
Brooklyn Zoo
Shimmy Shimmy Ya

Wednesday, November 19th, 2003

Time:3:17 pm.
I think If I got every Wu-Tang Clan CD and every single CD that the members of Wu-Tang Clan (Rza, Gza, U-God, Masta Killa, Method Man, Raekwon, Ghostface Killah, Inspectah Deck, Cappadonna, and Ol' Dirty Bastard.) made...I would have a full fucking CD wallet.

And ...I think I'm gonna make that my goal.

Tuesday, November 18th, 2003

Time:5:07 pm.
Circle Takes the Square winter Tour.


December 28th - Daytona Beach, FL "this is for you fest"

December 29th - Myrtle Beach, SC The Limelight

December 30th - Wilmington, NC (The Soapbox?)

December 31st - Richmond, VA (TBA)

January 1st - Ashville, NC - Green Eggs & Jam

January 2nd - Athens, GA - Tight Pockets

January 3rd - Birmingham, AL - High Note

January 4th - Atlanta, GA - the Neutron Bomb

Monday, November 17th, 2003

Time:6:34 pm.
10 bands I've been listening to lately
01: Wu-tang Clan.
02: Fablous.
03: Bjork.
04: New End Orginial.
05: J-Live.
06: The Misfits.
07: The Adicts.
08: The Dead Boys.
09: Sarah Mclachlan.
10: Cursed.

09 things I look forward to
01: Seeing Baby Girl tomorrow.
02: Bad Brains/Murphy's Law in D.C. with Miss Lori 40.
03: Recording again (around Thanksgiving.)
04: Thanksgiving.
05: Moving back in with my parents.
06: Coffee.
07: Working at Urban X-Change.
08: Finding a girlfriend, one who actually likes me.
09: Going back to N.Y.C.

8 things I like to wear
01: My Bella Lagosi Button on my Jacket.
02: My Black/Brown Nike Low Top Dunk Pro's.
03: My white think band watch.
04: My All-Black NY Yankees fitting yo-boy flat billed hat.
05: My Misfits Fiend Club belt buckle.
06: Plain Black shirts.
07: My studded belt.
08: Brass knuckles.

07 things that annoy me
01: Girls./Couples.
02: Long Books.
03: Cops.
04: My sorry life.
05: People in general.
06: People telling me what to do.
07: Not being able to go to bars and drink with the rest of my boys.

06 Things I love
01: Hip-Hop.
02: N.Y.C.
03: Meeting people.
04: Skating.
05: Cold Weather.
06: Having food to eat.

05 things I do everyday
01: Drink beer.
02: Get Dressed.
03: Hang out.
04: Put on some Wu-tang.
05: Draw.

04 people I want to spend more time with
01: My parents.
02: Jessie Carter (My old girl friend.)
03: Joe
04: All the Chesapeake/Norfolk/Beach kids.

03 Movies I could watch over and over again
01: The Rocky Horror Picture Show.
02: Haggard.
03: The Bjork DVD.

2 of my favorite songs at the moment
01: New End Orginial - 'Hostage'.
02: Wu-Tang Clan - 'Bar Mitzvah'. (It's my rap theme song for being a jew.)

1 thing i cant wait to do
01: Meet someone.

Time:1:20 am.
Mood: crazy.
Trip to New York City.

I left New York City with a few things I can only get in N.Y.C., so I was wicked stoked about it.

1.)The Misfits Fiend Club belt buckle. (Which I always wanted)
2.)An All-black NY Yankee's Flat bill yo-boy hat. (The shit is thug.)
3.)A lot of good Coffee. (From random coffee shops.)
4.)A thick white band watch. It's a 'JAY'S New York' one..but it totally looks like it says 'JAY Z New York'. haha. (I got off of some street corner in China Town)

Finially..
5.)A 60$ ticket for hopping the gate in the subway. Which I have to pay in 15 days, or I have to pay 110$. Fuck that bullshit.

I got to hit up all the lame ass tourist sites...like..Time Square, Macy's, Central Park, Empire State Building, Statue of Liberty.

I have about 2 camera's filled worth with some nice/artisy ass pictures.
I'm stoked about getting them developed.



Anyways,
Thanksgiving is coming up soon. Im REAL stoked, I'm just gonna roll over to my parents house, and leave with them to my Aunt's.

Thursday, November 13th, 2003

Time:6:11 am.
Bluntz, Martinez, Girlz and Gunz.
This fucking Wu-tang Clan CD is the shit.

Time:5:40 am.
Mood: creative.
I went to the Pawn Shop today for the first time.

I got 3 cd's for 10$

Wu-Tang Clan - 'The W'
Wu-Tang Clan/Killa Bees - 'The Sting'
DMX - 'The Great Depression'

I Think I'll start getting more CD's from pawn shops more often.


Anyways..
I got the money I needed for New York..plus a little bit more.
Im checking out this Black New York (yo-boy) type fitting hat, with the 'NY' stitching in black.

I think I'll get it before I leave.
So I can pimp it out.


I have a interview at 3pm.
I'm stoked.
Its almost 6am..and I'm still awake.

Tuesday, November 11th, 2003

Time:2:33 pm.
Mood: hot.
We're leaving for N.Y.C. on Thursday, We're real stoked, we're bringing a massive crew with us as well.

I need to go to the music shop and see if I cn trade one of my old guitars in for some money are atleast some new shit before we leave.

and some guy from some band, wants to buy one of my old amps. So I may do that.

Time:6:21 am.
My mouth is dry
Forgot how to cry
What’s up with that
You’re hurting me
I’m running fast
Can’t hide the past
What’s up with that
You’re pushing me


Why , bleeding is breathing
You’re hiding , underneath the smoke in the room
Try , bleeding is breathing
I saw you crawling on the floor




What a chill ass song.

Time:6:14 am.
..Staying up late again..downloading rap songs.
Life cant get any better than that.

Monday, November 10th, 2003

Time:7:17 am.
I might get laughed out for this.
But who fucking cares.

Check out this song.
It's pretty awesome. Its just...Chill.

'Smoke' - by Natalie Imbruglia

Go ahead, laugh.
Fuck off.

Time:5:33 am.
Here's what the good word is...


Sex and Whisky (5:23:27 AM): Here's the question.
CallMeRegEmo (5:24:18 AM): whats the question
Sex and Whisky (5:24:22 AM): if you could compare my band to anything, What would it be?
Sex and Whisky (5:24:34 AM): anything..
CallMeRegEmo (5:25:32 AM): anything...
CallMeRegEmo (5:25:45 AM): lemme dwell on it for a few
CallMeRegEmo (5:28:01 AM): a blow job


Rock and Roll.

Time:4:30 am.
Mood: cold.
Today turned out to be alright.

I woke up, and talked to Juanita online. She was bored, and wanted to take a nap, and play pool. So I invited her over.

I think she nap'ed for about 1 minute.

We got coffee over Ricky's with Daniel.

Came home, Regina showed up, and we waited for Joe to show up, so that we could all go to band practice.

We played through our set. It was kinda rough, but not bad. I definitly need to fix my bass input, because its basically working because I have a shitload of duct tape on it holding the chord in.

After band practice we went downstairs, I played Juanita in pool, which I lost in.
(She played the 'Im not that good at it, youll probably beat me' card)..and yeah..she totally beat my ass.

We hung out for a few.

Came back home, and went back to Ricky's.

Smoked a bit, Watched the episode of 'The Family Guy' that banned from Fox (or whatever). It had a bunch of references to Jews. Which ruled, it made me smile.

Juanita left to go home, and we left from ricky's shortly after that.

We came home.
I made Regina and Me some Spongebob Mac and Cheese, and we danced to the Outkast song 'Hey Ya'...(I totally dont dig that song, but oh well..it was fun)

Me, Regina, Joe, Ashley, and Bryan watched the movie 'Life'. Which I'd never seen before, it was really good. I have to admit.

It became late, and everyone decided to go home/pass out.


So overall..
..it was a pretty awesome night.



*.High points.*
-Regina gave me a fucking awesome cowboy shirt.
-I'm getting my haircut this week. So no-more 'Jew-Fro' for me.
-We're leaving for N.Y.C. on Thursday around 6pm, and coming home on Sunday. Im REAL stoked because, it looks like...Me, Joe, Ashley, Daniel, Ricky and Megan, Becky and Jarrod, Matt and Krissy are all going. Hopefully Jamie can get off and come too.



God, when did it decide to become fucking 30 degrees in Virginia. It's going to be freezing in N.Y.C.

Saturday, November 8th, 2003

Time:5:28 pm.
hesaidboom (5:25:53 PM): well...there is one little ummm thing...she is only 16
hesaidboom (5:26:12 PM): but hey buddy...if there is grass on the field..play it
Sex and Whisky (5:28:04 PM): i dont like grass

Time:1:19 pm.
Mood: cold.
I'm not going to NYC/Jersey with everyone this weekend.
I'm stll not totally sure if everyone is going. There's not really 2 cars that can actually drive that far.

But..yeah..I'm not going because I'm broke, and I need atleast 200-250$ to go. And If I had 200-250$ I would pay some of the money I owe to Danny.

I wish I was going, becuse it would be alot of fun, and everyone would be going. But oh well.


Anyways.
It's Saturday. I think I have to do some shit, but I'm totally sure.
Might get drunk tonight. I dont know.

I'm actually just looking for something to do.
I havent seen The Texas Chainsaw Masacre, Kill Bill, or the Matrix Revolutions..yet.

Maybe I should just get high and ride my bike around.


Also.
We are going to put a mini high pipe in our backyard.
Bryan has one at his house, that he never uses anymore, so he said we could have that shit.
We are all real stoked.
I think I'm gonna start skating hardcore again.
I've been actually looking on eBay for complete decks. I found a couple brand new Zero decks for 35$ complete. The wheels and bearing werent that great, but there bearable.

Oh yeah.
Last night Me and Joe rode our bikes to get some Chinese food across Jefferson, and ate it in the alley way. I ate some kind of shrimp roll, and it made me throw up, and I had this horrible ass taste in my mouth the rest of the night, it sucked.


I have a list of about 20 rap cd's I want.
And ..Christmas is around the corner.

Thursday, November 6th, 2003

Time:3:47 pm.
I think I'm gonna go ride my 10 speed, it feels awesome outside.

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